For Kris, for now:

I love you and I miss you still. It's been even more painful to see you now (than it was before when I thought I was okay) because I know I loved you no matter how you looked, what you did, and what you said. I loved you with everything I had and you chose to end our relationship—that hurt and it still hurts!! But that love wasn't supposed to last because I put you at a higher priority than God. I'm sorry that I did that but regardless of that fact, I still miss you. I want to be reconciled with God so I need to shift my focus from my pain to Christ's love.