I've decided:

I'm not going to SUPPRESS the pain,

I'm going to GROW with it.

Adding to Myself (2 Peter 1:5-8) and not letting the Enemy take away

For this very reason, make every effort to add to your faith goodness; and to goodness, knowledge; and to knowledge, self-control; and to self-control, perseverance; and to perseverance, godliness; and to godliness, mutual affection; and to mutual affection, love. For if you possess these qualities in increasing measure, they will keep you from being ineffective and unproductive in your knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ.

EDIT: Dear Former Bff, I wasn't asking for a lot—just a little DECENCY. Back then you meant everything to me. Then in July 2011, you told me you were called to be single and to dedicate your time to God. But, 2 months later, you told me you "moved on" and 2 weeks after that, I found out you had been talking to someone. 1 1/2 months after that, you two were dating. And after all that time, since we talked about the issue in 2009, you haven't addressed the debt you've accrued from dating me those 4 1/2 years. What a gentleman. Maybe in time, God will bring this pain that you caused me to light and you'll learn from the consequences of your actions. For now, however, I'm just trying to remember that you're NOT the man I loved.  You look like him and you move like him, but you're definitely someone else. The man I loved was somewhat decent, unlike you—who treated me like I was an undeserving monster. I wash my hands of this, this is YOUR war now. God's fighting my battles and His grace covers me; Jesus' life and example teaches me mercy; the Holy Spirit strengthens me and is harvesting forgiveness for you. 

If you don't know Good, then you're no good.  

siguro, ganyan lang talaga.