Secret #104

Reflection on HS:
It hurts to feel like committing suicide—you know it will hurt a lot of people if you do it but it hurts you to keep existing like you do.

God, this is how I feel...

God, help me focus on something else; anything else but the pain and the weight it has on me.

Reflection on the not-so-distant Past:

What helped me out of that rut in the past was to count my blessings (because before that, I used to cut). When I literally counted my blessings & listed them down on paper, I saw God's goodness in my life and what mattered. 

God is love always, in all ways. He was and is and is to come. He follows me and He goes before.