on another note..

my parents don't need to tell me that they're disappointed in me, i can already tell. do you seriously have to remind me about the sacrifices you've both made? how you both really want me to be a doctor? how your friends' kids are studying medicine too? how medicine is what the blood, sweat, tears, and fire were for?

i don't think you understand how unhappy and tormented i am because i'm choosing NOT to go to med school against your wishes. i feel like just looking for a job with my bio degree and not pursuing medicine at all. it's simply discouraging. this career decision grieves me and brings me to tears and even after your great vacation, you come home and nothing's changed—you still don't accept that i want to be a PA.

i still feel like a child because you treat me like a child.. with the constant nagging of what i should be doing, how i'm wasting precious time, how basically nothing i'm doing is right.

this is one heck of a day and it super sucks.