i've thought about you everyday since the day i met you

this super sucks.. get out of my head, you madman!!
i found that, in regards to the matters of the heart, 
in his heart, i mattered little. :(

i must take heart.

I'm building a bridge

and I WILL get over this.

until healing takes hold, here's my rant:
also, being defriended doesn't help either. 

i have a wildfire of anger inside me. the seed of bitterness is viciously thriving in uncontrollable growth. it saddens me that i keep feeding these negative things instead of giving them to God. i really don't like holding on to them. it's so hurtful and lonely.