I won't admit it outloud, but

I'm STILL hurt and insecure.. just the way you left me. 
I still cannot believe I fell for your deception. I feel cheated out of my time, love, effort, and devotion. I gave up a lot and I really fought for you. How did you walk away and have the balls to say that I hurt YOU after all of this mess has passed? Today (05/09/12) marks what would've been 2 months since the "relationship" went facebook official; in 4 or 5 days time, it will mark 3 months since our first "date" on Valentine's day. What you did was cruel and the repercussions of your actions still reverberate through time—this sad, mournful, hurtful soundtrack to your reign of selfishness still rings in my ears.. I'm still hurt and I still feel like it's not fair!!

All a man's ways seem innocent to him, but motives are weighed by the LORD. —Proverbs 16:2

I'm trying to do the right things, but do I have the right heart? Am I humble? Is the Lord accepting these words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart? Lord, Father God, please grant me humility and let me serve you in a way you will approve and be pleased with. Temper my faith; test it and challenge me.