rant of the night: i'm STILL MAD that you were my perfect first kiss

(so far)

I don't kiss and tell.. until now. I'm throwing caution to the wind because I'm done chasing it, the wind, that is. Enjoy! (I'm also encouraged to blog about it because I really should be studying for my written test at Lynch Ambulance tmrrw—procrastination station.)

So I'm referencing my little black book and my old post to help me write this:

At the WalMart parking lot:
I have to pee again. We're waiting in the WalMart parking lot, stalling I guess, since I'd already peed 5 times.
So picture it: I'm acting so weird right now because I really, really like this guy. I think this is the phase where I loved the smell of his skin—it was like crack to me!! Anyway, I drew a smiley face on his medial arm with my right index finger—if you ask me 'why?' I wouldn't have an answer for you.
I said out loud rhetorically, "Why do I act so weird?" (because I'm seriously frustrated with myself for being so awkward).
See, we look at each other in the eyes very closely, so close that our noses are touching. Then, we quickly turn away and sigh... BECAUSE ALL WE WANT TO DO IS KISS EACH OTHER! :) This happened quite often to us because of silly "young love."

He says, "Wanna hear a secret?*" then abruptly, "...no, nevermind."
Then, I quickly and anxiously ask, "No, come on, tell me. What is it?"
He answers with what we've both wanted to say for the past couple hours, "I want to kiss you."

 (I was so glad that he said that!! I'd been wanting to tell him the same thing but I didn't know if it was okay or not since I didn't want to ask him haha).
So I just told him, "I want to kiss you too!!" :)
And after that was established, I was an entity of nervous, excited energy. Is this real life?

He stole our first kiss.
I gave him our second. :)

We were kind of at a stand-still, so he darted in and gave me a peck—very lightly and gently to my upper lip. I felt ambushed; taken by surprise, so I told him, "Awww, I wasn't ready!" To redeem myself, I kissed him—also a peck, very lightly and gently, with my eyes vulnerably closed, my left hand wrapped around his neck and the angle of his jaw, anchoring me to earth as my lips touched his for a moment in time. Now THAT was perfect.
I know it was perfect because afterward, we smiled. (then we made-out. a lot. ever since. well, until we broke up. haha)

The WalMart parking lot, the lack of privacy due to the people walking by with shopping carts, the people parking next to us, te high traffic of people driving by, the awkwardness of the seatbelt digging into my leg, his awkward delving tongue—IT WAS PERFECT!

This is a memory I will remember forever, because this was the most perfect first kiss I've ever had (so far).


The back story, if you care to read it:

• we went to red robin and shared a bbq chicken wrap with garlic fries. i drank A LOT of water. he'll realize later that he forgot his debit card, like a loser.
• we go to barnes and noble by the mall because i have to pee. he orders a coffee (like he always does when we hang out; the only time he didn't buy coffee was when we were at Starbucks on Pierce, when he broke up with me -___-) and a cherry turnover. but this fool starts frantically looking for his debit card—BUSTED, it's at red robin! -___- so who rescues this fool? me, of course. we eat the cherry turnover and i have even MORE water. he calls red robin to confirm that his card is there then back we went to red robin (where i probably peed again).
• we hit up the starbucks parking lot after picking up his card (this is also the day i lost my red robin card because he picked up his debit card, but not my card -___-) by del taco just to hang out. lame, i know. but here is where he gets a text/call from his brother, Jorge, because they're at his parents house. so, then he asks me if i want to meet them... here we go!
• at robert's house i met his parents and his brother, Jorge, and Maribel. it was his brother's birthday or something or they were here from palm springs to go to their friend's birthday. ANYWAY..
• shino's. it was hecka unpleasant. i was hungry and the food was too small—to keep myself from starving, i drank lots and LOTS of water. i was a brat. plus, another annoyance: his card was declined.. yeah i know, "wtf," right?!
• after leaving shino's, we went to McDonald's because i had to pee. here's where he told me that he wouldn't let me get in his pants. i felt reassured. he told me that this was too important, that i am too important to mess up. (so much for THAT—and by that I mean the "too important to mess up," not the sex).
• THE WALMART PARKING LOT.
• then to WalMart because i had to pee again. people kept walking near the car and parking near us haha and yes, we were making out.
• too many people so we move to the Vons parking lot, yup, you guessed it: to make out some more. also, because i had to pee AGAIN. we bought 1 twix so we could use the restrooms here haha so there were 3 awkward moments: 1, when the parking lot security drives by haha and 2, when this car full of kids(?) drives by and laughs at us and 3, when this car decides to park near us despite us being parked at the far end of the parking lot and there being 100 other spots even closer to Vons hahah. so finally, we leave!
• then we go to promenade park because there's really nowhere else to go and i have to pee again!! and this place came to be known as the make-out spot.
• * this is an inside joke: on our first non-date date on Valentine's Day at IHOP, I tell him, "Wanna hear a secret? I don't like pancakes." 

our first kiss was STILL absolutely perfect.
lesson learned: next time, less water. next time, with a better man.