dreams

we were driving in the car through, what looked like DTLA, on the glorified version of the 101--no smog, fresh greenery everywhere, and lots of California sunshine. we were talking about how nuts were expensive now and how everyone wanted nuts at their weddings and how all we could get were mixed nuts and not the separated ones, or something like that. then, because i'm funny and playful, i ask you, "can i have your nuts?" and you gave me one of those "Satisfied Smiles" with a slight head nod--which i took to mean, 'she's the best; i love her; and i'm glad she's mine.' basically, i miss getting one of your smiles because you gave me so many of them before and i haven't seen one in almost a year. so i guess the only way i get one of them now is by dreaming one up. :( i really miss the idea of you and the movie-version of how 'in love' you made me feel on our long drives to anywhere.

i want a lot of things, and you're still one of them. i guess when i thought of mixed nuts, i had the idea that SEPARATING THEM IS NOT EASY, BUT IT'S POSSIBLE. i mean, look at us. :(

The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not want. Psalm 23:1

and i know this too shall pass. just, hopefully SOONER—quick and painless.