God put me in the literal desert to test my faith

it's a place of testing. a place of trial. a place to learn to trust. a place to be humbled. a place where faith is grown. where there is faith without trust, there is fear.

"Remember how the Lord your God led you all the way in the desert these forty years, to humble and test you in order to know what was in your heart, whether or not you would keep his commands. ³ He humbled you, causing you to hunger and then feeding you with manna, which neither you nor your ancestors had known, to teach you that man does not live on bread alone but on every word that comes from the mouth of the Lord. ⁴ Your clothes did not wear out and your feet did not swell during these forty years. ⁵ Know then in your heart that as a man disciplines his son, so the Lord your God disciplines you." —Deuteronomy 8:2-5

 i want to be in tune w/ you. i want every step i take to be guided by you. your gift of free will is beautiful, but teach me to rely on you with every single part of my life and with every little part of my day. your will be done in your servant's life. teach me to let go. teach me to trust. teach me that LIVING means persevering and giving my life up as an instrument of your kingdom's furtherance.