i don't need your love, just your money..

..just kidding. an apology is sufficient in aiding to bring closure on this gaping wound also known as our breakup, or more harshly put, how you dumped me.

more to follow--thoughts and woes.

EDIT: wrote this before going to LJS's and held back tears. why does it still hurt and why can't i let go? everything i wished for him has happened, why can't i be glad about that? why do i still feel hurt? is it because in order for him to have his happiness, he leaves me in the dust? he declares me as part of his past just because "[he doesn't] love [me] anymore and it wouldn't be fair" <
written at 12:30pm, titled "@Rajell's status update"
what exactly can i NOT get over?

1. he doesn't love me
2. he's with someone else now who he DOES love and who DOES make him happy
1. why, when I was the one who wanted this for him, am i not happy when it actually happens?
1. is this "be careful what you wish for?"
3. he hasn't even tried to pay my parents or me back
1. i understand when i refer back to #1 (he doesn't love me), but DANG FOOL.. where your integrity/honor at? because once upon a time you DID love me and once upon a time, i mattered
4. the years and the love and the time and the money i invested don't seem to matter to him
5. ouch. (still)

"I realize this comes at a very inopportune time, but I really have this gigantic favor to ask of you. Choose me. M-marry me. Let me make you happy." —Julianne Potter, "My Best Friend's Wedding" (1997)