note to self: had a vivid nightmare (about talking to K)

that i can't forget.
that makes me even more fearful and apprehensive to do what was put in my heart. (apologize)
lame.

the dream, recounted 13 hours later:

so the scene is set at some kick back with lots of couches and all the FRIES people are there. the back story is: you already know i need to talk to you about something and i proposed a time and date. now, scene 1: tanya and i were talking in a hallway outside of the room that everyone else was in and she told me that you didn't want to meet up with me AT ALL. i was annoyed and hurt at the news i just heard and walked into the room, which you were in and on the couch adjacent to mine, and i said something like, "well at least i didn't borrow money and say i would pay it back and then NOT..." this little stunt of mine earned one of those SUPER ANNOYED LOOKS (the famous ones you gave to Fred and your mom haha). it was a cold and also red hot, painful stare. i've never had one of those from you the whole time we were together and to get one from you in a dream in which i was acting out my attempt at setting time apart for an apology.... just... not. good. at. all. 

so i walked around this whole day, sad and hurt, as if the dream was real and i was rejected yet AGAIN. womp. :(