and so a revelation unfolds:

i find that i am probably coveting you. a godly man is someone i desire, but you're probably not the one i deserve. wahhhhhhhhhh :(
i relinquish this self-declared ownership; i undo the DIBS i called on you. & i just gotta get used to it. this is not how it's supposed to be and there's someone out there, but for now, I WAIT.
goodbye silly notions and daydreams; hide away for now and i'll revisit you when i actually have a man in my life! haha -_____-

cov·et
  [kuhv-it]
verb (used with object)1.to desire wrongfully, inordinately, or without due regard for the rights of others: to covet another's property.
2.to wish for, especially eagerly: He won the prize they all coveted.