it appears as if i'm invisible -___-

okay, so i get over this the same way i over my other disappointments (aka "Ang Kawawa Naman Ako' Cycle):

1. i feel sad about it, cry a little (BUT I'M NOT THERE YET, haha)
2. think about all the intricacies until i've exhausted all instances in the what-if-this world
3. forget about it, and get it over it
4. realize i'm not really over it, feel sad and wallow in my discontent
5. finally actually get over it

i really give up on it today. fin.