please, PLEASE, don't run out of sympathy. i can feel my heart sinking with the pain of the loss i suffered a long time ago. Lord, lift me up out of this despair and hopelessness. let me find hope in You, Your love, grace and forgiveness. shine hope abundantly into my heart and warm it with the reassurance that this too shall pass.
on another note:
it's so dang sad that i'm OKAY with people not liking me back. the realization of it makes me feel bad... for myself! haha that's okay, i'm okay. and even if i'm saying "i'm okay" when i'm not, i know in my heart that i will be.
"if not you, then who? if not now, then when?"\\EDIT: Thursday, December 13, 2012
something else that's sad: FF:"10y in the future"
it's about how i dreamed/had a revelation/had a vision about our future: our son asked me in heartbreaking genuine curiosity, "Mom, why do you always cry at night?" SUPER SAD!
no one got you like i did.
no one had you like i did.
no one lost you like did.
and right now,
i feel like i'll never regret anything
as much as letting you slip away.
"happy" 6 and 8, bee :(
\\EDIT: Sunday, December 16, 2012
the last time i talked to you was also the last time i cried myself to sleep. it was nearly 1 year ago on Wednesday, December 28, 2011. #misery
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