PS: this facebook fast is hard

i guess i really need it this time though. honestly, i'm a mess--i am not well adjusted at work; i want so many things for my life that it makes me unhappy; my eyes, ears, and heart are unreceptive to what God has laid/is laying out in front of me. i'm unhappy, hurting, and i'm mean about it. time for change. time to open up. time to let go and lay it all down--all cards on the table and put my guard down.

what am i fasting for?
i want an answer to whether or no my life will be moving on as far as my aspirations to be a physician assistant--will i get the interview? will i do well, if i get the interview? will i be accepted to that PA program? if i get accepted, will i do well? if i make it though the program, will i get a job?
also, will i meet my husband soon? am i strong enough to be a wife? will i get to be a mother?
where will God call me to serve? i need to serve and give of myself lest the talents He gave me go to waste and i become a useless part of the Body.
is my family going to be okay? will my parents stop fighting about finances? will my grandpa gain confidence and walk again or is he starting to circle the drain? where are are lives going? is it time to move forward yet?


\\edit, 02/25/13, 7:39 pm: failing in my fast: 
succumbing to temptation gives you momentary satisfaction; but afterwards you just feel guilty and frustrated because you broke a commitment you made.

do. not. settle.
only God can satisfy our souls, and our souls are CRAVING Him. we cannot be satisfied with that which is not eternal.
Psalm 63
sin feels good in the moment but it does not last. it wears us down. sin separates us from God.

O God, you are my God; I earnestly search for you. My soul thirsts for you... —Psalm 63:1

thank you, Pastor Dan Crowley for your message in FIT Week 7: Feed Your Soul, February 24th, 2013 Sandals Church