Life, a Numbers Game

Looking at one's life in terms of numbers is discouraging. 

There is a devaluing of one's self-worth when aspects of one's life 

are given a numerical value and ranking. 

Boo.

I'm always discouraged when I look at my life in terms of numbers (as calculated by CASPA):
2.61, my BCP GPA
2.69, my undergrad GPA
2.87, my overall GPA

Here are some more numbers:
1, the number of degrees I possess
0, the number of jobs I've landed that use by degree
1, the number of postbaccalaureate/graduate degrees I want
3, the number of grad schools I've failed to get into in 2013
4.5, the number of years I spent worrying about a relationship the didn't work out
3, the number of boyfriends in my life
2, the number of boyfriends I've been with
1, the number of husbands I want to be married to
1, the number of times I want to be married
0, the number of times I want to be divorced
24, the number years I've been on the earth

Numbers I'm afraid to learn:
the number of times I've let my parents and family down
the number of times my parents have told me to pursue being a physician instead of a physician assistant
the number of times I quit
the number of times I didn't try
the number of times i failed
the number of times I wanted to kill someone
the number of times I wanted to die
the number of plans I made to carry it out
the amount of money spent in sacrifice for me
the amount of money, time, and valuable resources I wasted
the
the hours I spent hurting people
the number of tears that fell in mourning over something that should've have mattered to me as much as it did
the number of times I chose in selfishness rather than love
the number of children I will, or will not, be blessed with