Things I'm scared to tell you:

All I can be for you is someone's sloppy seconds. My past relationships are sloppy. I'm sloppy. And I'm scared to tell you that part about me. 

I'm having a hard time forgiving the past and hurt that you carry with you. I know it's what has made you the man you are today but I wish I could have you without it. 

The risk of loving and being with you is so high and I don't know if the rewards will be worth it. I'm having a hard time trusting in God, trusting in you. I don't believe Him when He told me to remain in this relationship. I don't think you can pull your shit together and make it work for us, for the future. 

I might not be completely over Kristopher and I'm not sure how to tell you or f I even should. It was hard to hear that talking about him makes you uncomfortable. If something hurts me about him, then that means I can't talk to you about it. 

I see similarities between you and Kris that place even more doubt in the strength and durability if this relationship. I don't want you to be "another one"--a reliving of my past.