i'm hungry for something substantial

something fulfilling. something with meaning. something. anything.

06/06/13

Dear Paul,

I'm no good for you. I'll end up dragging you down and hurting you. Plus, I don't know how to love you. Im empty. I'm a fckin mess. Sorry. In the words of my ex, "Don't worry, it'll happen for you..."

-Joyce

06/07/13

Hey babe,

The one thing that I keep saying to myself is:

I'm the fourth. I'm the fourth. I'm the fourth. 

I didn't even place. Three other girls have been there, done that already.

Dammit, I don't want to be fourth. The best fourth gets is a participation ribbon or a thanks for trying certificate.

Always,

Fourth