The babies

If you kept that baby, you and I probably wouldn't have happened. I probably would never have met you. You would've been great and happy has a dad, that's for sure, but I don't know where you and your baby mama would have been financially. 

If I didn't lose a baby, you and I for sure wouldn't have happened. And it's sad to think that I probably wouldn't have been happy. The ex often put work ahead of me as a priority. I guess he wouldn't been a great dad, but I wouldn't have been a great mom, not even a good one.  And he wouldn't have been happy. He would most likely be miserable with me since he didn't love me. 

It makes me sad that you opted to abort a baby--that could've been your little Bella. And I think you want to meet her more than I do. I can tell you're gonna love her so much!! And, It makes me sick to know there were several before me--not just one or two, but several. 

Our past puts doubt in the kind of people we are that constitute this weak relationship of ours. We couldn't wait. We are selfish. This makes me fear that our relationship will not be blessed. 

You called me your wifee today. It was kinda cute. But it also scared me. Like the time we went swimming in lake Perris (on Saturday) and you sang that we would get married and have babies soon. Cute, but scary. 

I want to have a family so bad. And I know you want a family too. So it kind of destroys me that I fear I won't be able to carry any children. I'm scared of losing them. 

Bella May Demagno Tamayo and

Elijah Paul Demagno Tamayo (we're still looking for a middle name). These are my Bella bear and Elijah egg babies!! I love them already! I can't wait to meet our little guys, I've been dreaming of them my whole life. ❤