I realized that what I want out of my life is to be impactful.

im·pact·ful  

/imˈpaktfəl/

Adjective

Having a major impact or effect

When I leave this earth, I want my life to have meant something. Working toward this goal, making my progression, I need to adopt humility and abandon my stubbornness. Control is a big thing for me—I like knowing what I'm doing and being the one doing it. However with that attitude, there's no room for instruction, for leading, for guidance from God. Lord, help my unbelief. Instill trust in You inside my heart. I love you and thank You that You have not abandoned me. You are my God, my strength and my shield. You are a good God and giver of all good things.

Bring peace to end my hopeless wandering and settle the longing in my heart. My search is over—I've already found You, now help me to know You. Amen.