i'm not gonna let you make me feel miserable anymore

i just want to feel something that isn't pain.

i'm getting tired of burying my feelings because it's getting harder to hide them. they keep resurfacing and the more effort i put into hiding them, the emptier i feel.

i'm so tired, but i can't sleep. my mind is racing with thoughts, but my face is so blank. i keep thinking about the emptiness in my life.

my sleep is restless. i just want to fade away and leave myself and my hurts, pains, and worries behind.