Notes:

today, i prayed that God would help me to stop loving you. i don't want this anymore. i don't want to wait for you anymore. it hurts too much and it's not really worth it. you're not really worth it. maybe i'm not ready, maybe i'm too selfish, maybe i'm too jealous for your time and attention, maybe you don't care, maybe you just don't want this, maybe it's not supposed to work out. whatever it is, it's not for us because there hasn't been an "us" for a very long time now. it makes me feel sick thinking about it--it's maddening. it's over. today was not a good day to be in love.


i don't want to play this game anymore. i'm sorry, okay? is that what you wanted--for me to feel sorry for how i acted, for how i treated you? i can't do this anymore. i'm tired. it's exhausting trying to make myself fit with you. you win, i quit.