anxiety.

1. i can't get over my failed relationships.
2. my family is suffering declining health: 1) my dad needs an MRI, his doctors don't know what's wrong with him 2) my mom needs surgery to correct something herniated plus she's having unexplainable pains 3) my grandpa's old age, diabetes, blindness, weakness and dampened spirits are taking their toll on his well-being 4) etc. etc. etc.
3. i have to leave my friends, my new best friends, my sisters, my parents, Snow... all for Barstow. and i have to live w/ nin -___-
4. what is there for me? no car, no house, no job, no man, no kids what am i doing?