yesterday (12/04/12)

yesterday was the FIRST time i didn't get that strong, regretful feeling in the pit of my stomach. i was pleased to know and FEEL that God is working a healing miracle in my life. because of His great love and mercy, it didn't hurt to see your name online.

i typed a 'k' in the facebook search box at the top; i was looking for kat. underneath her name, was yours with your profile picture of you and her. i didn't get that cringing, twisty, uncomfortable feeling of loss that makes my heart drop to the soles of my feet—which was NICE for a change. 

please, be patient w/ me. GOD IS WORKING IN ME.