Selfishness rocks me

What a wretched spirit I have within me. I am selfish. I haven't let go of my wants and desires.

I miss Kris. It hurts to see him because I remember the hurt of losing. It hurts to see her name because I feel the hurt of replacement. I can know in my head that God willed for us to be with other people, but my heart cannot relinquish hope in reconciliation.

I haven't let You touch every part of my life. I want renewal. I seek revival. I seek rebirth and a new spirit. Teach my heart to trust fully in You and to walk in obedience.

I wish I could show love, grace, and patience to everyone. I am too proud. HUMBLE ME.

"Watch and pray so that you will not fall into temptation. The spirit is willing, but the body is weak." —Matthew 26:41

Break my hardened heart and build me up from my weakness. I know it will be hard. And I know it won't be fun. But I believe it will be worth it.

To God be the glory.

We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed. —2 Cor. 4:8-9

He must increase, but I must decrease. —Jn. 3:30