Dinner/Dance & 5 minutes of your time

The goings-on:

--So the (Pre-)Valentine's Day Fundraiser at church was fun-ish. Manang Dhot told me that you were bringing your ex to the event. MY HEART SANK, but that's how I knew getting to know you really mattered to me. I texted Gio because I was so bothered and troubled by this news.. thankfully, he texted me back saying he was just messing w/ Manang Dhot. So my heart leaped when I saw you walk through the door :) :) :) I was excited and shy and act super dumb and clumsy—this happened all night. My sisters, Chloe, Gio, and Manang Dhot all tried to push us together. We smiled, we danced (or more aptly put, tried).

--We talked for maybe 2 minutes the whole night.

--CONFESSION: I'VE NEVER REALLY SLOW DANCED WITH ANYMORE BEFORE. SO PLEASE DON'T TAKE OFFENSE WHEN I DIDN'T WANT TO SLOW DANCE WITH YOU. I DON'T KNOW HOW TO DANCE. 

you asked me if i was going to join the band. i said i couldn't because i live/work in Barstow. you asked me if i could make Fridays; i told you 'no'. you asked me about my name tag, why there was an 'e'. i told you my first name.

--My heart smiled when I saw you do the Baby Shark song w/ Kaitlin (and Kuya TJ). It was adorbs.

--Then as the night was ending, there was a bit of magic: you mini jam-sesh'd w/ me by teaching me a few chords from the song Manang Dhot sang at church today for Offertory. You were patient and attentive, interested and confident.

--I'm apprehensive to let myself get too close to you. I guess I'm hesitant because you basically have a fan club at church and I'm just a nobody. All the girls think you're cute, and they're not wrong! Jaimee did bring up one valid point that reassures me: you came to the Fundraiser; not (just) to hang out w/ the cutest married couple ever, Gio and Chloe, but maybe to see me. :)

--brown hair✔ brown eyes✔ cute nose (cute FACE)✔ righteous butt —3/4 ain't bad, yo ass is kinda flat hahah

(I'm not saying I need a boothang w/ a badonk, but it's just nice, you know? :) Maybe that's why I want a filipino man--he knows the "language of my people" and will have those filipino lips (that I think are sooo cute) and that booty)

--What really means a lot to me as far as how this friendship is going, is that I can sense the pursuit, which is nice; it's different. 

Thank you for the 5 minute exchange of information while we were in line for food. Is my heart allowed to be this happy? I'm seriously giddy. Thanks for the laughs, and my favorite part, the tiny smiles and glances. :) You seem really smart and give off this "cute nerd" vibe. You're obviously wonderful. And I hope it's not too obvious that I have this monster crush on you. AND, I really appreciate the attention you give me—you make me feel super special and when you look at me, I really believe that you think I'm "cute".

i told you again that the 'e' on my nametag was the initial of my first name. i told you i worked for my aunt in barstow as an MA because i couldn't find a job as an emt. you told me you were trying to be a certified as a security guard(?) but i'm not too sure because i guess i'm not a good listener. ALSO, my mom introduced herself to you and told you "good job" or whatever because you accompanied Manang Dhot during Offertory. anyway, then i tried to explain to you what an EMT does, what an MA does, and how they relate to one another, and also what PAs can do; i wasn't too eloquent since you give me butterflies and make me nervous. i asked you what you were currently doing and you told me about work. you tried to explain to me about sound, soundboards, "and whatnot" and you said you guys mostly work in DTR (in fact, you recently did sound for UCR's asian people new year thing). i'm pretty sure you said "and whatnot" about six times as you tried to explain work. we laughed and smiled and it's become one of my favorite things to look into your eyes :)

it was really cool that you had to go have lunch with your parents but you stayed for a while and had lunch at church too. silly boy.

\\tiny update: 02/11/13, 7:52 pm, fb chat w/ G

when you saw him today, did he say anything bad about me?

Nope. He actually felt like an idiot around you he said

he's too freakin' cute.

I WILL BE LESS SHY

AND TALK MORE.

CUZ I KNOW

HE'S SHY TOO.